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✏ title : Midnight reflections
Posted on : Friday, October 31, 2014 @ 9:12 AM
Today was quite a crazy day, to say the least.
1) Survived on less than 4h of sleep and headed to school to study. Spotted the monitor lizard from afar, and already my day didn't seem to be going all too great. But catching up with trishie felt real good :)
2) lunch with BGP was great, such a wonderful break from craziness and exhaustion. lots of laugh + good food + great company, my girls :')
3) Andrew reached school bearing a surprise - a vanilla latte from bux which he surprised me with outside angsana - to help me deal with my food coma. well, the excitement and anticipation of seeing him was enough to get me out of my food coma (but he doesnt need to know this, i always appreciate a good cuppa hahaha)
4) SHIT WENT DOWN. was leaving the MR and lo and behold the monitor lizard was right in front of me. a few things happened all at once - i froze + ran back to angsana seeking help from lych and rez who came to my rescue (thank you lych for your RBR sacrifice :*) + trish came out + all 3 of them walked w me. I WAS TRAUMATIZED AND FREAKED AND JUST.... IT WAS HORRIBLE.
5) Went to the mr, saw andrew and started crying like the wuss i am hahaha. but he made it all better and held me till i stopped and kept whispering amongst my sobbles that i am safe and that i will always be safe with him. and even though i was still recovering from trauma and kept breaking out into sobbles, after a while i wrapped my arms around him and clung, knowing that i am safe and will always be safe with him :')
6) went to watch a soccer match that was intense lol i need to learn how to not be so embarrassing....do i really want to though.... NAH. hahahaha
7) after being excited the whole day to have dinner with andrew, and doing work in the MR, he comes back from talking to a few friends to ask me if im having dinner and says that if not his friends asked him to join them. and ofc i was just like wtf?!??!? I WILL GO HOME. and was generally frustrated. but something beautiful happened - i saw how upset he got/hurt he was by seeing me frustrated - and then amidst packing my stuff and about to leave, i realised, i couldn't. I couldn't walk away even though its my coping mechanism for almost everything (walk away & deal with it yourself). In that moment, i put what he was feeling above my own selfish need to do things the easy way. and then we talked about it and he apologized and everything was perfect and we had dinner tgt and dad picked me from the mrt.
OKAY REFLECTION OVER, SOCI RP NOW.
1) Survived on less than 4h of sleep and headed to school to study. Spotted the monitor lizard from afar, and already my day didn't seem to be going all too great. But catching up with trishie felt real good :)
2) lunch with BGP was great, such a wonderful break from craziness and exhaustion. lots of laugh + good food + great company, my girls :')
3) Andrew reached school bearing a surprise - a vanilla latte from bux which he surprised me with outside angsana - to help me deal with my food coma. well, the excitement and anticipation of seeing him was enough to get me out of my food coma (but he doesnt need to know this, i always appreciate a good cuppa hahaha)
4) SHIT WENT DOWN. was leaving the MR and lo and behold the monitor lizard was right in front of me. a few things happened all at once - i froze + ran back to angsana seeking help from lych and rez who came to my rescue (thank you lych for your RBR sacrifice :*) + trish came out + all 3 of them walked w me. I WAS TRAUMATIZED AND FREAKED AND JUST.... IT WAS HORRIBLE.
5) Went to the mr, saw andrew and started crying like the wuss i am hahaha. but he made it all better and held me till i stopped and kept whispering amongst my sobbles that i am safe and that i will always be safe with him. and even though i was still recovering from trauma and kept breaking out into sobbles, after a while i wrapped my arms around him and clung, knowing that i am safe and will always be safe with him :')
6) went to watch a soccer match that was intense lol i need to learn how to not be so embarrassing....do i really want to though.... NAH. hahahaha
7) after being excited the whole day to have dinner with andrew, and doing work in the MR, he comes back from talking to a few friends to ask me if im having dinner and says that if not his friends asked him to join them. and ofc i was just like wtf?!??!? I WILL GO HOME. and was generally frustrated. but something beautiful happened - i saw how upset he got/hurt he was by seeing me frustrated - and then amidst packing my stuff and about to leave, i realised, i couldn't. I couldn't walk away even though its my coping mechanism for almost everything (walk away & deal with it yourself). In that moment, i put what he was feeling above my own selfish need to do things the easy way. and then we talked about it and he apologized and everything was perfect and we had dinner tgt and dad picked me from the mrt.
OKAY REFLECTION OVER, SOCI RP NOW.