random thought - but sometimes I wonder if people are really as happy for me as they say they are hm. Maybe I expect more because I would put aside whatever I was feeling to feel happy for those important to me, but I think its unreasonable to expect that from others. Ah well, whatever.

also - am super stressed want to pull out all my hair but i love my hair so it will have to stay and ok this break is over i just took a nap and now a night full of work awaits